what happens when I’m avoiding things
I played a gongbath last night.
First, though, a quick CN that there's a mention of possible police violence. No bad news, I'm fine. But in case you're needing some space from that.
Anyways, at the gongbath, we discussed the absurdity of going on with daily life while bearing witness to violent chaos elsewhere. And we came back to the need of decompression, the need to connect, the need to find moments of peace.
That gongbath is the reason I slept soundly last night. Rest that helped me manage conversations about safety at protests—talking to people about my experience last year, of staring down police holding rubber bullet guns.
Because I did exactly that, last year. It's a story for another time. Nothing terrible happened to me that day. But when I witness the context of that day, those months, the last couple years, it's an experience that's been very hard to process.
So I'm glad for the music that allows me to decompress, to connect to who I truly am within the web of creation.
Because I'm still struggling to show up. I'm rarely on social media; I've barely sent these love notes.
Do you approach struggle that way? I've never found a surefire way to jumpstart motivation. I avoid; I procrastinate; I find steady distractions.
AND
(The sacred and.)
Even in the struggle, I keep moving (as mentioned previously). Meaning, that when I struggle to show up in one space, I try to show up elsewhere.
I've done this so much in the last 6 weeks that I have a bunch of things going on. So many that I created a dedicated listing on my site, as well as included the list below.
It was reassuring to realize I'm not as stuck or stagnant as I think. That I can trust my own flow, even when it feels jammed. That I'm tuned into a greater flow—the deeper energetics that are the nature of our existence.
Because, ultimately, that's what we get to do, in these bodies, on this planet. We can attune to the energetics and vibrations that connect all of us, in as many moments as possible.
I hope you're having that experience as well. And if you have suggestions on jumpstarting motivation, I'm always happy to to learn.
In the meantime – stay safe and know your rights at protests. And don't forget to say hello to the full moon tonight.
Chinga la migra,
S.
she/they
Still Moving ~ memoir of my first 3 years of Long Covid
sync. fire. ~ concept album about synchronous fireflies
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Upcoming events:
~ Blackstrap Psychic Fair on July 1st – Divinatory Sound
~ Gongscape at Heck House on July 8th
~ Mystic South Conference on July 11th-13th – workshop, panel, book signing, 1:1 sessions
~ Blackstrap Psychic Fair on August 3rd – Divinatory Sound
~ Acworth Book & Storytelling Festival on August 23rd
More details here.